SHEILA MARTIN POETRY
HE HAS FILLED MY CUP
My name is Sheila R.Martin, My life has been a journey of ups and downs and ins and outs, i used to think my relationship with the Lord was like a rollercoaster or bi-polar, on fire one minute, singin the blues the next, five years ago i found myself a crack addict , but the whole time i was on crack i could feel the Lord tugging on my heart, He was relentless, but i would brush Him off and continue the downhill spiral.
My name is Sheila R.Martin, My life has been a journey of ups and downs and ins and outs, i used to think my relationship with the Lord was like a rollercoaster or bi-polar, on fire one minute, singin the blues the next, five years ago i found myself a crack addict , but the whole time i was on crack i could feel the Lord tugging on my heart, He was relentless, but i would brush Him off and continue the downhill spiral.
One day, sitting on the crack dealers front porch i got this lump in my throat, wanting to cry, and i whispered to the Lord, oh God please help me get home...(I was in Georgia, home was in Pennsylvania). It was a desperate plea from my heart to God's ears, my heart cried out, while my mind was telling me i needed some more crack...so i then find myself on the couch of a crack buddy, as i am sitting there "hitting" the pipe, tears start rolling down my face as God begins talking to me, He said," I love you with an everlasting love, I will never leave you or forsake you, you are the apple of my eye." My friends are looking at me, asking if i was okay..I cried, "God is talkin' to me," and i wept.
Within a weeks time i was back home in Pennsylvania, my dad drove all the way to Georgia and picked me up, but God was not through with me yet..the day after i get back to Pennsylvania, I find my self in jail for probation violation ( thats another story). It was in that 8 x 8 jail cell, that i finallly gave up the fight, i cried out to the Lord, " I surrender my will to Yours, it was my will that got me in this mess, my will, my way, isn't working, it never did, I surrender." I was only in jail for fourty five days, and for anyone who's been there, it felt like forever...
God allowed me to end up somewhere i couldn't run from, He delivered me from crack addiction, today I live to love the Lord, to serve Him, to worship Him and long to behold Him..His love reaches to the lowest pit to bring a lost lamb home, and all of heaven rejoices. As Corrie Ten Boom said, There is no pit deep enough, that God's love is not deeper still.
God allowed me to end up somewhere i couldn't run from, He delivered me from crack addiction, today I live to love the Lord, to serve Him, to worship Him and long to behold Him..His love reaches to the lowest pit to bring a lost lamb home, and all of heaven rejoices. As Corrie Ten Boom said, There is no pit deep enough, that God's love is not deeper still.
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